~♥The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return♥~

wow, it's been like almost a year since i've updated this thing!
so that was week we just had off from school was awesome! i love being a bum and not having to do anything! i don't even remember what i did most nights but i'll try lol
monday: school was pretty easy...renaissance rally 8th period was SO LAME but i got out of trig so i'm not complaining! i spent a lot of monday night working on the senior gifts, getting pics developed and all. then jim came over and we watched some tv...i missed laguna :-(
tuesday: i spent the whole day doing senior gifts with danielle player. it was pretty fun though...we were like going crazy and it was just nuts! then we had the guard party at like 7...didn't go as well as planned. nobody really wanted to be there, the people that actually came that is. everyone left at like 8:30! we had like 4 whole pizzas left over! nephew came later on and she spent the night at my house...we ended up falling asleep though like right away lol. we still have some pizza left over from that party...it's like all i've been eating!
wednesday:i really don't remember what i did
thursday: i cleaned my room a little and read some "catcher in the rye". jim and danielle came over pretty late and we played some disney scene it and watched a couple guard shows, then we went to the lock-in. it was so much fun! i got to spend the entire night with jim and it was awesome <3 i got really tired and didn't fell very good like halfway through, but then i livened up again.
friday: slept like all day before the football game. the football game was fun...i'm going to miss the seniors so much, i love that guard! my brother came to the football game!!! i didn't think he was going to get to see me perform this year, so i was beyond excited when i saw him and laura in the stands. i started jumping up and down on the 50, right in the middle of the field, while i was setting my equipment when i saw them....there's nothing i love more than making a fool out of myself! so after the football we go back to the guard and realize that it got robbed...i didn't get anything stolen but other people did. tracy lost $10, ey lost her license, hobaz and steph lost money, marleigh lost some medicine...it was crazy! so we waited around for the cops and then went to friendlys. i love food.
saturday: went to mall with my mom and got my ears pierced...they hurt :-( i have gotten my ears pierced so many times and they always get messed up! afterwards, me, jim, tracy, and glickman were gonna go see saw 2 but the movie was sold out...plus they wouldn't let me or tracy in cause we're only 16. we rented amityville horror and watched it at tracy's instead...it was okay i guess
sunday: went to elizabethtown to see my brother's jazz band concert. god, i love that school. it's so nice there...i wish i were smart enough for that school! then we went to dinner in etown...i like getting to spend time with mark. he might come the football game on thanksgiving! i'm so excited that he'll get to see me perform! he had a solo in his concert...sounded awesome. how'd the talent gene skip over me? no fair!
today i had powderpuff practice after school...and more the rest of the week. it's kinda fun i guess

so band is over for the most part...i am going to miss all the seniors so much! i don't know what i'm going to do next year without them...it's gonna totally suck! tracy and i were talking about how we need to start making some friends our own age because next year we won't have any! lol like today at powderpuff practice, me tracy and kristen were totally secluding ourselves because we really don't have any junior friends! haha oh well, i'm over it!
i decided i'm not going to europe this summer for a bunch of different reasons.
#1. my parents are already sending me to cali this year, florida next year, plus whatever the chorus trip is. they're gonna have to get me a car this summer, too...not to mention my brother is getting married in a few months and weddings aren't cheap! they said that they're willing to send me, and i know that they really are, but it's just way too much money for me to ask for, i feel bad
#2. i need to get a job this summer. i'll need money to pay for gas once i get a car, and i don't have enough in the bank to get me through this christmas alone! i'll have no other time after europe with vacation and band camp to get one
#3. i don't want to be away all summer, especially since jim will be leaving for college and i want to get to spend as much time with him as i can before he leaves. i know that europe is only 3 weeks, but then i have to figure in at least 2 more weeks for vacations and a week for band camp...that's just way too much time to spend away from home.
#4. i'd be missing out on so much...like tracy and kristen's birthdays, and also my dad's birthday. plus fourth of july 'festivities' and all.
#5. i'm trying to convince my parents to plan some kind of trip to italy, even if they send me by myself to stay with my uncle.
#6. i don't really know anyone else going...
so maybe i'll go next year, but i'm not gonna go this year. i figured rather than explaining it a million times to the tons of people who are telling me to go, i'd just write it here lol

ok so i'm gonna go now...that was a really long entry lol

i wrote the long flippin' update and then it dissappeared!! boooo livejournal! basically, guard's good, midterms suck, and i <3 snow(just so it doesn't stop my brother from coming home from college this weekend for the eagles game). grr i'm so mad that got erased! i saved a mouse from my cat today. she was carrying it around, but it wasn't dead. it was sooo adorable...then the stupid thing bit me so hard and i got mad and threw it with all my might into the ground. i felt really bad so i wrapped in a towel until it finally ran away. lol. that's my heroic story of the day, now let's hope i don't have raibies! lol, i drenched my finger in hydrogen peroxide until it looked like a raisin! but man, that stinkin' little thing really chomped down! i saved it from being eaten by a cat, it should have been appretiative! well i'm gonna go study now. i'll write again later...

GO EAGLES!!!       

the lapalomento family totally rocks at catch phrase....i thought you all should know that ;)

does anybody know a way that i can STOP growing up and go back a couple years to middle school, where the terms "college" and "SATs" were just heard in conversations among older siblings and parents and we were aiming to "perfect" and not just "good enough". all i ever hear is that it's not "good enough". i brought home, at least what i thought to be pretty decent PSAT scores, but they're "not good enough". in my dad's words, i "have to do a lot better" and i'm "not exactly going to get into princeton with scores like that" (even though i never ONCE mentioned princeton...) i finally got the sabre work down that i missed in guard, but it's still "not good enough" for tj. i can't stand it. tonight at dinner my dad randomly starts talking about colleges. i know i should be thinking about that now, so whatever, i listened to him because i know that he knows what he's talking about. but then my brother says "so i guess you're done with the $35,000 private colleges, since you finally got one of us in one"(he goes to elizabethtown college in PA, a great school, with scholarships, and that's what i get compared to) and my mom was like "well, not if she can get scholarships! but at this rate..." like i'm the dumbest person ever! i hate being the youngest child, i'm always being compared! my oldest brother had it so good. he set the standards for us. then mark had to go and higher them. they've gotten my so afraid now that i won't get into any college but like a community college. aahhhh it's friday night and they got me thinking about COLLEGE!!! WTF?!! lol

major props if you read through my rage!

Happy New Year everyone!! today was my 2nd day back since the holiday break. school's been pretty crazy, considering i was out the last 3 days of school before break with the flu : (  i have like 5 things at least to make up in algebra alone! err! Well, I had a pretty good christmas. I got pretty much everything i asked for, including my awesome digital camera! lol. i was still kinda sick, but not enough to keep me in bed on a gift giving holiday! after christmas, i just kinda shanked around until new years. on new years eve i slept over lucas's. that was a lot of fun. at midnight, we got little noise makers and went outside and ran around. a few the guys decided to run around the block topless...i didn't mind that at all lol. we played truth or dare for a little while...fun times! ;)...until i totally lost my mind and went insane. I felt like i was drunk, even though i hadn't been drinking lol. I was up till about 8 a.m. throwing marshmallows at every guy in my sight and beating up scott. i think that was the night i decided i officially can't stand guys. you can't live with them, but you can't live without them!! ugh. New years day my family came over. i fell asleep watching napoleon dynamite<3 with my cousin's (can you believe i slept through that?!) and i slept straight through desert (i know you can't believe that!) and OH YEAH!! my brother is getting married!!! 3 times in my life i cried happy tears: when i got my dog, when we made finals in wildwood, and when he told me they got engaged! i'm still so excited!! i've gonna have a sister-in-law, and the COOLEST ONE EVER too!! hehe i know you're all so jealous :-P

so today is january 4th. it's been a month without sam. it really doesn't seem that long, i guess since i think about her all the time. RIP Sam, we miss you!

it's also trae dawg's half birthday!! lol happy half birthday trace, ilu!!!

 

oh, and by the way, i don't obsess.

hey! i haven't written in a really long time. not that much has happened actually lol. what can i say, i have a pretty boring life! the guard scored 3rd place at giants stadium, beating Immaculata. i think that's the most exciting thing that's happened since i last updated this thing.
christmas is coming soon and i CAN'T WAIT! i picked out the hottest digital camera to replace my old one that broke and i really hope i get it. the only that sucks is that we're probably going to my aunt's for christmas. i like spending time with them, but we've had christmas at my house for as long as i can remember, and it just won't seem the same anywhere else. and we can bring my dog because their cat "will get stressed out and have an asthmatic attick". whatever.
i'm really mad....my parents are being so unreasonable about me buying a computer. i really don't see why they care if i buy a computer or not...i've been saving up since 8th grade working 2 jobs and it's not like i'm asking them for any money for it. i don't understand. i was allowed to buy a computer before. i even ordered one but then the shipping got all screwes up and...long story, but i never got the computer. now that ready to buy ome for good, they change their mind. what gives?! i'm been cleaning my room like crazy so hopefully they'll let me get one. one things' for sure, parents sure do know how to make life as complicated as it can get!
so i was thinking about how annoyed i get when people will tell you or one of your friends something and really get your hopes up, and then let you down so it hurts. then i realized i did the same thing to someone. i thought i had gotten over it and i feel really bad about it again. well, i guess everyone has regrets here and there. i guess i deserved what i got...a stab in the back, a taste of my own medicine.

btw, it's over...

i haven't updated forever...

stole this from mark:

Twelve random things you like:
01) colorguard
02) napoleon dynamite
03) not having homework
04) being with my friends
05) rifleline
06) bummin' it on out
07) not being home
08) football games minus the all day pracices
09) 6th period lunch<3
10) long rides on the guard bus with my closest friends
11) making it to finals in wildwood
12) my pets:-)

Eleven movies:
01) Napoleon Dynamite
02) The Notebook
03) Finding Nemo
04) Princess Diaries 2
05) Shrek
06) Drive Me Crazy
07) Titanic
08) The Little Mermaid
09) One Flew Over the Cukoo's Nest
10) The Miracle Worker
11) Seventeen Again

Ten good Bands/Artists
02) Maroon 5
03) Josh Groban
04) Jewel
05) Coiled
07) Rascal Flatts
08) Lonestar
09) Train
10) N*Sync (i know, i'm a loser:-P)

Nine friends:
01) Trae Dawg
02) Kristen
03) Gross
04) Hobaz
05) Chase
06) Chrisina
07) Sam
08) Steph
09) Meghan (i mentioned the first 9 people that popped into my head...if you're not in the list it doesn't mean that you're not in the top 9 ;-) )

Eight favorite foods/drinks
01) Chicken Cutlet
03) Icedtea
04) Cheese fries
05) Grilled cheese
06) steak
07) Turkey&cheese sandwich
08) any of my mom's meals

Seven things you wear daily:
01) socks
02) shoes
03) underwear
04) bra
05) hair accessory of some sort
06) contacts
07) clothes

Six things that annoy you:
01) spinning sabre
02) annoying people
03) school
04) homework
05) teachers
06) some people's voices (i.e:my mom, senora grossman)

Five things you touch everyday:
01) a rifle/flag/sabre
02) my computer/keyboard
03) my hair
04) my stereo
05) my bed

Four shows you watch:
01) Boy Meets World
02) Full House
03) Road Rules
04) Knock First

Three celebrities you have a crush on:
01) Napoleon Dynamite
02) Patrick from Road Rules season 13
03) Erik Van Datten(sp?)

Two nicknames:
01) T-Bird (T)
02) Crae

One Person You Could Spend The Rest Of Your Life With:
01) Haven't found him yet...

so yesterday was tracy's party. i went over at like 4 to help decorate...tracy says i got too balloon happy, but i think it looked festive! the party was fun, we played jailbreak and she has karaoke. thursday we went to party city and got balloons and a pump to make balloon animals. i made an awesome snail and a really fun hat. nobody seemed to like my elephant (or demented dog, or rat....whatever you wanna call it) very much, but i still thought it looked cool hanging onto the balloon hat.

so i was really mad when i found out that lucas makes $1.10 more than me, and we started working at like the same time. apparently alex started out making more than me too. i'm really mad and i'm gonna tell my manager today that i'm not gonna work anymore after band camp. next summer i'll probably work out bottino's since my parents are pretty good friends with mr.b. that's union and i'll get paid more. well, i g2g2 work :'( cya

ok, so since for some reason the pictures aren't showing up, i made a yahoo photo album. go here: http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/dare2dream3389/my_photos hopefully this will work!!

so anyway, i just got back from atlantic city. we spent the night at the hilton last night. the hotel room was really nice. there was a jacuzzi tub and a great view of the city and the bay.
when we were on the boardwalk, i got some phsycic freak to read my palm. apparently i'm gonna get married when i'm around 23/24 and have 3 kids. i'll have a lot of boyfriends before that, and right before i get married, i'll kinda be in love with two guys, but the one i go back and forth with is the one i'll end up marrying. and i'm gonna meet someone at the end of september who i really like. i kinda believe this stuff, cause she read my mom's palm and everything she said was true. since my mom's older, she said a lot of stuff from her past. she even guessed how many kids she has (four) and i was the only one with her. so that was cool.
last night we went to planet hollywood for dinner. they had a lot of neat things in there, like the jacket arnold shwartzeneggar wore in "the terminator", an outfit brittney spears wore on her 2000 tore, and a dress that vanna white wore. my dad got me a really cute shirt that says "planet hollywood" on it.
when we got back to the hotel, i sat in a caffe called "lazy dolphin" or something like that and listened to this little group who just sang cover songs. they were awesome, and i stayed there for a while with my mom.
this morning we went to a breakfast buffet. we met these really fun old people who kept talking to us. they kept making my dad try different foods after he was full, it was so funny. after we checked out, we went on the beach. i didn't go swimming, so i started reading "the notebook" again, for the second time. we ate lunch at this cute little "beach bar". it was yummy, but i was still kinda full from breakfast lol.
so now i'm home...that was a fun little mini-vacation. i didn't think it was possible to have fun with just my parents, but it turned out okay. they were both being really fun the whole time, i guess cause my brothers weren't there to bring down their moods lol.
tomorrow i'm finally gonna go see the notebook. i loved the book, and i heard the movies even better. plus, the guy who plays noah is pretty hot! lol.
i'm gonna get going, but aren't you all proud of me for updating?! lol see ta

Hey! it's been so long since i've updated this thing!! well, i have some fun pictures....so enjoy!

 

 

^chase at friendly's looking gay...and hot!

^dan at friendly's looking gay and hot as well!

^hobaz, tracy, gross, and me soaking wet in the bathroom at wendy's after walking there from the movie theater in the pouring rain...ahh fun times!

^leigh ann, michelle, tracy, and me looking like we're peeing on the wall....there's some you-had-to-have-been-there history behind that one!

^tracy getting ready to kiss the hot pirate at clementon

^that's my puppy trying to pull off cool sunglasses....i think the look totally works for her! lol

well that's all for now, folks. i'll put more pictures up here later. i don't feel like actually updating now lol. maybe i'll get around to it later...maybe ; )

last night was a blast at pen's party. the hawaiian theme was so adorable...i got laid 3 times!! we played limbo (and i really suck). joanna is a limbo beast! i swam like most of the time, and we had dunking wars. i'm not good at dunking people...especially lucas lol. then jacuzzi time! that was awesome. we never stopped by monzo madness to laugh at people....i just kinda forgot. oh well.
tracy's concert was great. i didn't stay to watch the orchestra, but the chorus sounded great. it was just women's and chamber choir, mixed is next week i think. after the concert, we went to applebee's. we got appetizers then me and tracy split a blondie (yum!) there was a really hot waiter there!! lol
just like 6 days till the phillies game! dude i really can't wait! i need to go shopping for a new phillies shirt... yess i have a reason to go to the mall now! hehe

ok bye

*so i went for my interview at mcdonalds the other day...i got the job. i've been working on getting my working papers all filled out..they're such a pain in my butt! yeah i don't know anybody who works there...hopefully i'll meet someone cause it'll be weird not knowing anybody.
*the last few days have been total crap. we're getting ready for finals, and the end of the year is coming, school has been more difficult than ever. i have a bunch of things to make up in geometry, and i have a couple things for science too. i stayed after today to make up one quiz i missed i missed....failed that with flying colors. i've been getting these headaches lately and feelin like crap...i wasn't in school tuesday. i think it might be cause of the rain cause today i was ok. i always get rain headaches. probably that and stress. arg i can't wait till school's over!
*tomorrow is pen's party. that's gonna be a lot of fun. i might stop by monzo madness afterwards to laugh at people...that sounds like a ton of fun too lol
*i CAN'T WAIT till thursday (next thursday). my dad got tickets to see the phillies game! they're awesome seats too!! 100 level (section 108, row 31, seats 16-18)they're right by first base. i'm thinkin some foul ball action maybe? tracy and her dad are coming too. i can't wait it's gonna be so fun! i can't wait to see them crush the braves!!
*tonight i'm going to tracy's chorus concert. afterwards probably gettin some ice cream, yum!!!

ok time for dinner...adios!

i got myself thinking....i HATE when i think!!

Lactating Barbie? What the fuck is wrong with you?
Snap out of it and kill the kid while you still
can!


If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
brought to you by Quizilla

stole that quiz from gross, how fun is that?! hehe

i have no life and i found out what this song means from freetranslations.com since it's like my favorite song lol...thought i'd share...

Piove sull'oceano
Piove sull'oceano
Piove sulla mia identità
Lampi sull'oceano
Lampi sull'oceano
Squarci di luminosità
Forse là in America
I venti del Pacifico
Scoprono le sue immensità
Le mie mani stringono
Sogni lontanissimi
E il mio pensiero corre da te
Remo, tremo, sento
Profondi, oscuri abissi
E' per l'amore che ti do
E' per l'amore che non sai
Che mi fai naufragare
E' per l'amore che non ho
E' per l'amore che vorrei
E' per questo dolore
E' questo amore che ho per te
Che mi fa superare queste vere tempeste
Onde sull'oceano
Onde sull'oceano
Che dolcemente si placherà
Le mie mani stringono
Sogni lontanissimi
E il tuo respiro soffia su di me
Remo, tremo, sento
Vento intorno al cuore
E' per l'amore che ho per te
Che mi fa superare mille tempeste
E' per l'amore che ti do
E' per l'amore che vorrei
Da questo mare
E' per la vita che non c'è
Che mi fai naufragare
In fondo al cuore
Tutto questo ti avrà
E a te sembrerà tutto normale


TRANSLATION...
It rained on the ocean
it Rained on the ocean it
Rained on my identity Flashes on the ocean
Flashes on the ocean
Us of brightness
Perhaps there in America
THE twenty of the Peaceful one Discover my hands his immensity
squeeze distant Dreams AND my thought runs from you I Row,
I tremble, I hear Deep, dark gulfs IS for the love
that I give IS you for the love that you do not know
That I would want it IS for this pain IS this love
that I have for you
That does to surpass me these true storms
Waves on the ocean
Waves on the ocean
That sweet will be calmed
my hands squeeze distant Dreams
AND your breath blows over
I Row me, I tremble, I hear Wind
around the heart
IS for the love that I have for you
That does to surpass me one thousand storms
IS forthat I would want
From this sea IS for the life that there is not
That you make be shipwrecked me
In fund to the All heart this will have you
AND to you normal everything will seem

...it's kinda screwed up, but i'm still enjoyed


anyway, today was super saturday. i can't believe we had a 3-hour and had to be at the school 2 hours early for like a 10 minute parade. i thought that was really pointless, but whatever. i'm so mad....i really wanted to go see 13 going on 30 with gross tonight, but i'm punished and i have to work on my research paper all night. history is just another pointless concept...sorry if you disagree, i've had arguments on that before. i'm really hungry and nobosy's home to make me something to eat. last time i tried to use the stove, the towell caught on fire. blah i hate being stupid. so, i had another one of those 3 day weeks. i was absent monday cause i couldn't get outta bed cause i was tired from wildwood. yesterday i was absent cause i was sick. turns out i have swimmer's ear from going in the ocean at wildwood. just my luck :-/ i still don't regret that though, it was tons of fun. i was sick in other ways too yesterday...tummy ache, sore throat, and that kinda bs. i hate those crap days where i wanna curl up into a little ball and die...yeah that sucks lol. i hate missing school cause like now i have so much crap to make up. english quiz, science test and lab, history quiz, geometry quiz and test, quitar profinciency test, spanish quiz, plus like 3 make-up gyms....wow that's every subject. it's been piling up from me missing so much school. ugh! ok i g2g get working on this research paper...how fun

love hurts :-/

yeah...so i'm home now and i can update :-D so yeah...where was i? right...me and kristen got matching shirts, blah blah blah, i got a really cute sweatshirt...and WE MADE FINALS!!! we were soooo excited!! when we found out that we made finals, we went outside, held hands and just SCREAMED!!! it felt soooo good since we had to hold it in for a while lol. so the finals went pretty good i guess, we could've had a better performance though :-/ oh well, at least we made it!! i've cried happy tears twice in my life-- when i got my dog, and when we made FINALS at wildwood!! TJ was so proud too...even he was crying happy tears!! he took us out to Mack's pizza...that was really hott. i'm gonna miss TJ so friggen much! so, saturday we had a really late retreat...didn't get back till 1 AM, then we had to clean our room. that was such a mess...empty pizza boxes, random sweedish fish smushed into q-tips...yeah, fun times! our motel was pretty crappy...our room was so small, you could barely walk. we didn't get a clock, and we didn't even get the disney channel. WTF?!?! oh and our bathroom door didnt shut either lol...and if you did get it shut, opening it was a 2-person job...but it was a lot of fun. saturday, me, kristen, and jen built up enough guts to swim in the FREEZING ocean. that was so fun, once my body went numb and i didn't realize how cold i was lol. we were determined to go swimming, and the pool wasn't filled up....so we shanked around in the ocean for about a 1/2, then met krista on the beach. i think she wanted some "alone time".  so we went to get dried off, and everybody looked at us like we were crazy...hehe :-P so, now i'm home. i didn't go to school yesterday cause i was exhausted from the trip. today, i found something that really pisses me off....so people are such backstabbers....errr!! ok i've really written alot...time for meba to go work on my research paper some more...grrr i hate history